what to do...crab!!

i'm just the ordinary one
i'm just want everyone to be fine
i'm just wan everyone to be happy

i dare not let You sad
i even dare not let yOu sad

at last..
i'm the one sitting at the corner
flowing my tears
alone~~
all the way

anyone willing to teach me the way to let go?
anyone willing to tell me how to relieve all the burden?
anyone willing to tell me how to breathe under the sea.......

oxygen!!!!!!
air!!!!!!!

i'm just the ordinary me....
the ordinary lil' girl
the ordinary...student

i just did what i hope to
i just did something i wish to

at last...
end up with a word
FALSE

i should live for you..
but not myself...

i should follow whatever you said..you asked
but not the whisper from my heart

i did so much...
over third quarter
just for you..
the remaining a quarter..of my life..
just for myself..
but also..
end up with FALSE

am i selfish?
or already too generous...

i believe
i'm already generous enough
to spend most of my life for you
instead of ...myself

getting mad of it
i'm lack of tears
until nothing can flow down my cheeks
i'm lack of energy
until nothing to comment on your objections
i'm tired of that

if i could
i would like to run away from all these
include meeting up with You and yOu

You force me to be alone
You force me to face anything in my heart alone

and yOu too
force me to leave yOu alone

both of you are...
and yet i'm the bad one

the only way i can do is
ESCAPE

the only thing i want to do is
ESCAPE

RUN!RUN!BEFORE YOU HAVE NO CHANCE!

i'm going to learn
how to love jocelynn more
how to love kityee more
how to love myself more

~THE END~



~jocelynn_kityee~