~wonder~

wonder the feel of hugging approach
wonder the feel of rely approach

no energy for everything
no energy for anything
no energy for nothing

HUGS WANTED!
need support
only support
not much
not difficult
support is enough

seems like i ruined everything
seems like everything goes wrong
seems like nothing is great

who willing to lend me a hand
pull me up to the earth im staying
im drowing..
drowning on the earth im standing
into the world we called hell

hearts heavy
until it presses onto my lungs
consequently,
breathe difficulty
and heart gonna stop beating soon

the feel is back
the feel of sadness

ur coolness
makes me uncomfortable
u can dump me
but not treat me in that way

i rather being dumped
than treated like that
hate it
since 3 years ago
and now
it's back
so clearly

keep on building ur protecting shield
keep on ur coolness
it's nothing wrong to behave like that
just both of us will b injured so thoroughly
no mood
no appetite
ate bread for lunch
ignore bfast
no supper even though im hungry
just dowan to consume any food
and don't feel like wanna touch any food
included snacks
or even ice cream

i wanna sing
i wanna watch
i wanna shop
i wanna travel

i wanna stop thinking of those bad mood
i wanna eat as much as i want
i wanna cry as loud as i could

long time din express this kinda feeling
once i thought it disappear in my life
FOREVER

unfortunately,
it's back
it's a horror
for me
at least
NOW

no tears can flow now
even though my heart is bleeding
friends are important
but u know your status in my heart
meaningless to bring up "your friends is so important" issue
every time during quarreling
enough

got no confidence enough
build it!!
explain much u never listen
so u can only build it
because what i gave
u never ever accept heart fully

now i told u im tired
and u ask me to sleep
im just informing u
i'm tired
your hands shud holding mine now
like what u said before
and yet
u said
"tired then go sleep!"

~jocelynn_kityee~