d0ubtfuL****

I'm wondering
Why I'm feeling strengthless..
Even sit down and chat
I felt that I'm lack of energy..

somehow
I'm physically tired?
Mentally?
or my heart getting more tired and tired..
Doubting~

This is not the ordinary me
I should'nt be like this..
Isnt that, I'm energetic always?
Doubting~

Felt scare..
for this strange...me

Sometimes,
I just hope to be alone
No chatting face-to-face
No assignment
No social life
Just hope that there's only me in my world
Changing to be anti-social?
Doubting~

Once a person get elder,
he'll get tiredness..as his reward for living?
Doubting~
Hate that!

Is there anyone willing to lend me a hand
Giving me more energy?

Is there anyone willing to protect me..
safely..
So that I do not have to build up my 'firewall'
in order to survive
Without getting hurts?

Is there anyone willing to love me..
more than I do,
So that I can feel the love?

Sometimes
Really tired of keep giving love to others
who needed..

Sometimes
instead of giving..
I'm hoping....
for accepting~

Life~
full of Doubtness
and even
Tiredness....



~jocelynn_kityee~